Sky, star, Love. (They became ONE)

There is nothing a star cannot like about the sky. It was like an unwanted dream. It all happened in their mind. Now it's reality. Too real to dream.

She said what she does was beyond love. Yes, it was. It was beyond that. It can't be love when you don't have the feeling of making the one you love smile.

She still remembered how she bit her own lips and she couldn't hold on to that feeling. That love gave her wings. Wings to fly. Wings to fly high. In the sky above. In the same sky, where he was only some star.

There were many more like him. But she chose him

She was his. Or atleast he imagined her his. He was hers and she was sure about it. Until it happened. Now she wasn't sure that what she did was right or not. She should fight for him of not. Is their future bright or not. She thinks. Now she cries alone in her room where her cry stays unheard.

She thinks that he should come and save her. Save her form this misery, from the pain. She wants to laugh with him, cry with him; but she is crying for him right now.

Its killing him too. What he could do to save her? He lost himself in her. He was becoming like her. He wanted to be like her. To think like her. He wanted to be with her. He thought she would help him in that.

She wasn't sure. He couldn't speak. They almost ended it by saying things they really didn't mean. They cursed each other, just to be with each other.

They couldn't find a way to get out of it, or staying in it. They almost went far. When they realized that they can fall, but they cannot fall apart. They felt a thread. Connecting their hearts. Holding them together. Both of their hearts wanted to beat in the same rhythm.

He always knew it. she wasn't sure. He made her feel that. They hugged. They hugged amorously. When they finished hugging each other and felt satisfied, the thread got tangled. They saw it.

Now they had to stay close. If one could go away, it could break the other's heart. They knew it. Now they had proof. They tightened the thread. They tightened their hug.

                                   They became ONE.

Depression...

She: Tell me, just tell me why do you want to leave me?

He: I'm depressed and that is the reason i want to leave you.

She: It's the same reason I can't leave you.

Life of #US, right now.

Why are you too far from me? Why can’t I touch you? Why is the world being cruel to us? I see a couple holding hands and laughing as they look into each other’s eyes… I have always loved couples like these, but after you came, I’ve started to hate them (Jealousy, maybe.). I have always wished that they live a better life, but since you are too far away from me, and I cannot smile and laugh with you while holding your hand in mine and looking your eyes, I feel jealous at them.

What have we done wrong to deserve a life like this? How are we going to decrease the physical distance we are having between us right now? I don’t have answers to these questions; and that disappoints me. That makes me hate this world. The life I have. I too have dreams of #US like those couples have. I too want to feel your skin through the tips of my fingers. I too want to hold you by your waist with both my hands; and while doing that I too want to pull you closer to me. I too want to go on a date with you. I too want to kiss your lower lip which is little bigger. I want to suck all your love from you while kissing those beautiful lips. But…

When I sit and think about it deeply than I should probably be thinking, I came to know about a harsh reality, that you are nothing but a sound coming from my hands-free. You were always there when I was alone. You are still always there when I feel alone. We both were.

But like you always are, if we think practically, we are nothing. Our relationship doesn't exist in the real world. It only exists in our mind, in our emotions. We mistook our emotions with what we feel in the real world. It’s like wishing for something which doesn't exist. I know you do exist and you know that I do exist, too (otherwise who would be writing this). But the thing is if we remove that hands-free from our ears, who we are? What we are? Where does our relationship stand?

You might say that you always think about me when we are not talking too, which is of course, I also do. But the thing is, if we have never seen each other, and we wish to see each other no matter what happens. Nothing else should matter. If the pressure of not doing something is more than the desire of doing it, you are ruining lives. I mean LIVES, not life.

Something About Love... And the Pain it gives...

"This is love. When someone drags you from the wreckage when you have given in, ready to just lie there and die. This is love. When someone, nomatter what the cost, shows you there is hope, a choice, that you can put down your gun. This is love. Love hurts."

-Max Payne

Yes. Love hurts. It is because the person you have loved more than yourself just leaves. (well sometimes they live happily ever after. But I'm not talking about them right now.) It is when someone has to leave because of some practical or impractical whatever the reason is. The matter is when someone has to leave, when someone whom is once part of your life and now is your life, without someone you know that your life will be as it was before them leaves you.

And it hurts. It hurts because it is the person with whom you have shared every little thing of your miserable and painful past(yeah, pain brings people close faster than happiness) , the beautiful present (they are the reason) and dreamt the future(with them). 

Love can change your life. In both good and bad way. In a good way, Love is like a medic which the doctor gives when we fall sick. Medicine heals body, when love heals your soul. When you have the person who loves you more than any other thing, it feels like heaven and it feels you are the king of the world.

Love grows. And when saying 'I LOVE YOU' don't satisfy you that you have expressed your love, when you want to say something else, something more than 'I LOVE YOU', that's when you know that you have found your soulmate.

But when that SOULMATE has to leave, feeling of love, the happiness, which can be seen even from looking in eyes gets replaced by pain. It is like binary choice that is left when a person gets so much involved into other - love or pain.

And sometimes that pain is more than some of our biggest miseries. The more you are involved, the more it will feel like.

"In the end, If you found someone who love you more than their dreams, don't ever leave them, ever."

P.S. - I know it's difficult, but make them come if they have left. There is always a hope.

~°°What if°°~

You had always mocked me. 
Your words even choked me. 
I didn't know what to make of it.
You never showed mercy, for the sake of it.

All I wanted to see you happy,  see you smile.. 
But you.. Yes. You brought me here where happiness is far a mile.. 
Money was your only style...

I cried and cried for nights to think..
Do I really want a career of paper and ink? 
I asked and asked for hours without a blink...

I realized,  it is true.  This is what i want.
These nights must stop their haunt.

I held the pen in my hand and tears in the eyes, 
Now my fate will rise, 
You all will get, for I have a prize..

As I m writing this poem, I smile at the paper, 
My all  sorrows evaporated like vapor..

I always think now, what would I become, 
If all the pain didn't come? 
What if you hadn't mocked me? 
What if your words hadn't choked me?

~rpan™

Be strong. Stay calm. Move on

“The first step towards getting somewhere is to decide that you are not going to stay where you are.” ~Unknown

There are times when we find ourselves in misery. There are times when we are not able to put a real smile on our face. There are times when we can’t see a way to get out of it. There are times when we are lost.
We all have those memories in life which we have buried inside us. Some situations when which we were too helpless to do anything about them. We might had different plans for our life , that didn’t work out. We might have thought of being something else and we are something else right now. We think that we didn’t get what we deserved. We think that we are not able to do anything about it now. Actually, we can.
In fact, we have to do something to put ourselves out of that misery, out of the pain that we are carrying in our hearts for a long time. We have to leave our past to make our future. We have to live the present. We have to be happy. We have to move on...

“Cry. Forgive. Learn. Move on. Let your tears water the seed of your future happiness.” ~Steve Maraboli

There is nothing that we can’t change. If we are able to forget the past, then only we can focus on our present, and then we’ll have the strength to change the future.
What happens when we move on is we leave those things which have already wasted so much of our time and tears behind. We can think about the future. What happened was past, it won’t change. What can be changed is our future. And we are the people with so much passion in our different fields of interest. We can get more success and happiness if we move on from the bad memories. In order to make new and happy memories, we have to get rid of those bad memories that have obstructed the path of our future happiness.
We know that it’s difficult to move on from the worst memories that have changed our life in a blink. It’s difficult to forget those times and forgive those people who are responsible for that. It seems impossible to forget it or forgive them. But we have to know one thing that those who are responsible for our pain don’t care and all those night we spent crying, they were sleeping soundly in their beds. If they cared, our life wouldn’t be like this. There is only one way to get out of it; if you can’t forgive them, forget them. It’s the way to move on from this and let go of the pain. Let’s get succeed and show them that they have made a mistake by underestimating us.

“One day this pain will go,
Let’s move on and not let it grow,

You are special, you are brave,
Not anyone’s slave,

Don’t seek for revenge,
Of course, your life will change,

Don’t act too strange, because…

One day this pain will go,
Just Move On, and not let it grow.”

~rpan